Closer to God

I grew up knowing that God was someone who loved and cared for my well being. My mother became sick often with skin infections just after my parents got a divorce. After that i didn't have it easy with the constant taking care of my mom and trying to gain my dad's attenchion. I learned a lot from my mom and she really showed me what it was like to have a relationship with God. After all that she had been through she still loved and praised God for all the things he had given her. It took me a long time to see what good God was doing for our family. My mother ended up passing about three years ago. At first i became angry at God, i mean how could he do something like this to me when my mother did nothing but praise him. I soon started reading the bible more and realizing that God wasn't the reason for my moms death. It was just her time and there was nothing i could do to stop it. She was in so much pain the last few years and i'm glad that she doesn't have to deal with it any longer. I now look back on our life together and i remember all the things she did for others and how you could just tell by the way she talked and her actions that she was really close to God. She truely loved her heavenly father. So now i try to live my life the way she lived hers, always striving to glorify God in all that i do. Even when i feel like the world is caving in on me i know that God is there to pick me up.