I'm finding it more easy to wake up in the morning and actually want to get out of bed rather then just lay there the rest of the day. Loosing a loved one is a hard thing to deal with. Its something no one should go though alone. As for me when i lost my mom i felt like even with all my friends and family it just wasn't enough. The words "I'm Sorry" eventually feel like a brain freeze, only something you get when you drink something cold to fast. But this year I'm not gonna let the fact that i lost my mother at a young age get me down.
Slowly i am putting my life back to the way it used to be, although i don't remember a time when my life wasn't stressful. Constantly taking care of your sick mother was never what any "kid" wanted to do, but it turned out to be my way of life for years. I have thought many times that I'm free, free to be me, to hang out with friends and to do what i want without having to worry about my mom. Although that sounds terrible because i did what i had to do out of love for her not just because it was something she asked me to do. Now that i have this new found freedom i realize i still feel like I'm missing something; something i know i can never get back.
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